There are many times in your life when you question why certain things do and do not happen to you. I try to reason everyday with my lot in life and sometimes I can't even answer myself. It is a dreadful feeling. Everything that has happened to me or that is happening to me is all for a reason. But what that reason is I have no idea. I wish there would be a billboard somewhere with everything written out and explained to me. I am tired of being in the position that I am in. I am tired of having all of my medical issues. I am tired of un-reciprocated feelings. It hurts more than anyone can understand. I am stronger than all of this. So, don't anyone worry about me jumping off the deep end and doing something selfish or stupid. I am far, far to self appreciating to do that. I am not vain because I'm not pretty enough for that idocracy, but I do like myself far too much to throw it away. What I do want is that just once in my life something can go my way that is something that will make my life more enjoyable. I'd love for someone in my life who makes my day brighter just for existing. Someone who doesn't judge me, hate me, or look at me with sad/judging/disgusted looks. I may not be the ideal woman, but dammit I AM WHO I AM
Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up
