The Days That precede Days

I had to drop my English technical writing course . It is a little discouraging since I really enjoyed the class. I just hope that I don't get charged with the cost of the class and that it gets dropped from my record.

But with the financial aid hold, I am not going to have it dropped in time to get a hold of the money to pay out my expenses. I decided it better to drop the class that struggle while I am working so many hours to make sure that I get to keep my apartment.

I really love this job. It is something that I love to do. I have only worked in customer service positions and it is what i love to do. I love to help people and make their lives more enjoyable and easier to live. I will strive to do everything I can to make sure that every customer I meet learns from our communication that I AM there to help them and that I DO understand their issues and concerns and DO Care.

Bad Decisions

I can't believe that I have acted the way I have. I deserve to be slapped. HARD. I hate that I have hurt him. I should know better. I shouldn't have gotten so attached so quickly. I freaked out.

I'm not ready. That I feel 100% about.

All I can say is I'm an asshole. I shouldn't have gotten into the relationship without completely thinking it through first.

I should have known better.

I would normally put my tagline here. But tonight I just don't feel it. I'm not good enough for it.

Ahh. School You Tricky Devil You've Found Me Again

So I had to start a blog for a class I am taking this summer. We shall see how it goes. I am excited for it. It looks like a lot of time will be put into this and taken up, but I hope to balance it well with my new job.

ORIENTATION ON FRIDAY

SO FREAKING EXCITED.

Here I Sit

So, there has been quite a bit that has happened since my last post. I know that no one reads my posts, but I will post anyway. It's nice to have a good outlet from time to time.

I got cleared by my apartment complex for a medical needs cat, or one that a doctor has signed off for me to get. I know that sentence sounds weird and every time I bring it up in conversation people ask me if I am going to get a cat with medical needs. That's a NO. I am torn between a couple of different friendly felines.

I have been going to the shelter to play with the animals and love on them. I am mostly trying to do my part and help these helpless animals get some love and attention. I hate to see them all locked up in cages like they are. I would love to be able to take them all home with me. But, alas, I cannot. Not until I move into another apartment. My current, or one of, roommates is highly allergic to cats. One cannot stand them, and the other, well, I don't know her too well since she just moved in.

She strikes me as someone who would be kind to the animal but not all that receptive. Anyhoo. Here are some pictures:

This is Radar, 1yo, M, very sweet

These two are F, 3mo and 2mo, respectively; Snuggles and Jenny.

This is Domino, 3yo, M, super lovey (aka attention HOG).

I don't remember this one's name. I'm going to call him Dr. Who. 2yo, M, lovable but not good with other animals.

This cat is Mr. Bigglesworth; he is my favorite. He's 6yo, M, and makes a funny noise to get your attention. It's not a normal meow. It's more like EUGHHHN. He's AWESOME.

This is Maggie. She's 8mo, super sweet and she wraps her paw around your finger and gently scratches to show her love back, otherwise, she just sits there and looks at ya.

I really like them all. I am aiming for a M, between 1 and 3yo. But, If I get really attached to one of the other animals I will go outside my comfort zone for them.

Oh and did I mention that when you scratch Mr. Bigglesworth's ears or chin for a fair amount of time he starts to drool. And then proceeds to shake his head, thus, covering you in slobber :D

I spent friday night in the emergency room with a friend. Turns out she had kidney stones. I can totally relate to that as I have gone through passing them. Her's were obviously large and obstructing. She was so violently physically ill that I had to take her in. They got it figured out and she was discharged almost 3 hours after I left her with her mother.

I am anxiously awaiting my job orientation on friday. I can't wait to start working again. I hate not having something to do. That is why I signed up for a summer class. It's a technical writing intensive course but I think I will do just fine. I love to write.

It's 3 AM and I'm going to go finish my movie "I Now Pronounce You Chuck and Larry". Have a wonderful rest of your day and happy memorial day to everyone.

Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up

Don't You Just Hate It When . . .

Don't you just hate it when you sit on the internet and you sit with a good book and you hope that maybe that good book is going to come out as a movie. I do. I have an obsession with the House of Night (HoN). I love the plot lines, twists, and characters. Personally, I think that they should make the language of the book a little more grown up because really who says poopie? or bullpoopie? Come on the other characters come right out and say it. Shit or bullshit!

Anyways. There was news rumbling through the grapevine that they are trying to make the novel series into a movie series. I wish they would go ahead and get that crap moving. I love the books; I know the movies won't be exactly the same but please if they were we wouldn't go see them now would we. We'd get so damn bored we would quit going and the franchise would die without us. 

There are just some things that make it worth while to sit down and enjoy a good book. My props to P.C and Kristen Cast. Well that is all I really had to say on that matter. 

Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up

Sleep walking and Dark chocolate

There are many times in your life when you question why certain things do and do not happen to you. I try to reason everyday with my lot in life and sometimes I can't even answer myself. It is a dreadful feeling. Everything that has happened to me or that is happening to me is all for a reason. But what that reason is I have no idea. I wish there would be a billboard somewhere with everything written out and explained to me. I am tired of being in the position that I am in. I am tired of having all of my medical issues. I am tired of un-reciprocated feelings. It hurts more than anyone can understand. I am stronger than all of this. So, don't anyone worry about me jumping off the deep end and doing something selfish or stupid. I am far, far to self appreciating to do that. I am not vain because I'm not pretty enough for that idocracy, but I do like myself far too much to throw it away. What I do want is that just once in my life something can go my way that is something that will make my life more enjoyable. I'd love for someone in my life who makes my day brighter just for existing. Someone who doesn't judge me, hate me, or look at me with sad/judging/disgusted looks. I may not be the ideal woman, but dammit I AM WHO I AM
Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up

It's only 12 minutes late

I just read about the southwest airlines pilot who held a flight for a grandfather who was on his way to see his grandson pulled from lifesupport after being brutally attacked by his mother's live in boyfriend. My heart goes out to this family who lost someone so young so early. But, I know that I myself am very proud of the pilot for realizing that there are somethings that are more important that arriving at the airport 5 minutes early.

end of my rant. my UBER sensitive touch pad mouse is about to drive me up a wall,

Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up