Sleep walking and Dark chocolate

There are many times in your life when you question why certain things do and do not happen to you. I try to reason everyday with my lot in life and sometimes I can't even answer myself. It is a dreadful feeling. Everything that has happened to me or that is happening to me is all for a reason. But what that reason is I have no idea. I wish there would be a billboard somewhere with everything written out and explained to me. I am tired of being in the position that I am in. I am tired of having all of my medical issues. I am tired of un-reciprocated feelings. It hurts more than anyone can understand. I am stronger than all of this. So, don't anyone worry about me jumping off the deep end and doing something selfish or stupid. I am far, far to self appreciating to do that. I am not vain because I'm not pretty enough for that idocracy, but I do like myself far too much to throw it away. What I do want is that just once in my life something can go my way that is something that will make my life more enjoyable. I'd love for someone in my life who makes my day brighter just for existing. Someone who doesn't judge me, hate me, or look at me with sad/judging/disgusted looks. I may not be the ideal woman, but dammit I AM WHO I AM
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It's only 12 minutes late

I just read about the southwest airlines pilot who held a flight for a grandfather who was on his way to see his grandson pulled from lifesupport after being brutally attacked by his mother's live in boyfriend. My heart goes out to this family who lost someone so young so early. But, I know that I myself am very proud of the pilot for realizing that there are somethings that are more important that arriving at the airport 5 minutes early.

end of my rant. my UBER sensitive touch pad mouse is about to drive me up a wall,

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There are a few things i life that are certain

Death.
Taxes.
Humiliation.
Love.
and Heartache.

Just thought i would throw that out there. I have been watching Prison Break and it is pretty addictive. I had originally watched the show when it came on on tv but I started in the middle of the first season and missed all of the background information. I am stuck like glue on this stuff. Not to mention Dominic Purcell, (character is Lincoln Burrows) is GORGEOUS!

In other news, I love and hate winter break. I love it because i don't have to worry about school or all crap that goes with it, but i hate it because it is so long that i get really bored.

New Years is coming up soon. Just a couple of days away and I already have two options for it. They are: 1go out of town with a friend or 2stay in with a couple of friends and ring in the new year that way... I would love to go out of town but i don't think i can budget that at the moment.

SO i guess we will see how things go...
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Southern Miss 2010 JMass and TC

Winter in the South

Now, you would think that even though I am currently in the south that the weather would be remotely cool. HA! This is definitely not the case right now, its 4 AM and I can't sleep. Insomnia will do that to you but it doesn't help  that its 52 degrees out. I know most of you would say, "Gosh thats cold." Ha. nO. not at all. I wish God would shut off the heater and crank up the A/C outside. This is disgusting for December. I let the mutt out and it is hotter outside than it is inside. Forgive me, but this is just shit.

Well that's all i have to say because when I am warm and cannot sleep i get really cranky.

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GRR

I HATE RAIN. It makes everything hurt!!!!

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I'm tired...

Of never getting a single freaking' comment or read. This is getting pathetic. I wonder why people can't stumble aimlessly across my blog but I can see a ton of blogs from people who've not even posted in months! at least i try to post every once and a while. I was going to post every day but i started running out of things to say.


Oh well. Screw it. I'm too tired tonight.

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