Dress Up Disaster Down

Ever get the urge to dress up and get gussied up but you have no where to go? Well that is me. Tonight anyway, I am sitting here blogging about the depressive social life I have and watching Kitchen Nightmares. I love the show; I hate the people on it MINUS Gordon Ramsay. He is amazingly talented and I think these ungrateful people should be excited that he has saved them from bankruptcy and homelessness.

Well, I have lost my "appetite" for writing tonight. Hopefully I will get it back.

Good Night Speak Up and Stay Strong

When the Blind Lead the Blind.... Get Out of The Way

I realize I haven't posted in a while and I sincerely miss getting my "retarded" and slightly cynical views out for everyone to see.

I have dyed my hair again. Not that anyone cares. It is Burgundy right now. I love the color. It is so fun and colorful. I lack any sense of witty grammar at the moment. 

God, my feet are so sore right now. I have been running errands like a mad woman today. With two separate friends, but thank sweet baby Jesus, we got them all done. I am so exhausted... So I pose a question for anyone that actually gets this far in the blog. What is the weirdest errand you have EVER had to run with a friend that did not directly impact you?

Feel free to add comments for your answer!

Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up 

It only takes a Moment to Realize a Lifetime

There are some things in this world that are beyond words to describe their amazing impact on your life and I would like to share one such thing that happened to me today:

I had a woman today who called at the center and I talked to her so long... She has been a huge inspiration for me. She suffers from several chronic diseases and is handicapped to a chair and has had to fight so hard to get disability. She had to hire a lawyer just to get it and then is having help from a disabled community program to get her a motorized chair. I spoke with her while fighting back the tears as I realized that despite everything I go through, it could always be worse. She was so amazing and her daughter, at 17, took care of her and her mentally handicapped brother. The woman had so much trouble with getting some tylenol delivered after a she got a package and it was all smashed and the pills where scattered everywhere in the box. I took care of her, free shipping, expedited to her home, in hopes that FedEx would be more careful than UPS. She was so strong. And she was worried about me~! I told her how wonderful she was because everyone needs to know that it isn't an embarrassment to have to be in a motorized scooter to get around or be on disability. Life happens to us and we need to remember that it doesn't matter what others think, it's how strong we are to get through the battle of everyday. She has to go through so many surgeries because she is missing the cartilage in her hips and other joints, had a stroke, fractured her upper femur. 

She was a travelling nurse. She has huge plans to go back to work. I can say I may have only known her for that one hour, but I will NEVER forget her.

She told me that her daughter wants to be a chef, and she's a great cook! She wants to travel the world and whenever her mother told her that she'll meet a great man who can take her across the world, she said that she refuses to go unless her mother can go with her. She said that she'd do anything to make it so that her mother can go with her. 

I don't know if there are more than I can count on one hand of the people who've impacted my life and my not even knowing them. 

She is my hero.

Rain from Heat

There are some things in life that you definitely cannot take for granted.

A sense of one's self.

A rightness in your place in the world.

A delicious one of a kind Dr. Pepper.

Other than that you are free to do as you please and to exist as you please. There are few things in this life that you can take for granted and then there are things in life that we all take too seriously.

I am watching the movie According to Greta and I absolutely love it. Through all of Greta's antics and the constant angst filled one liners that she comes up with completely hit home and show me just how much worse my life could be if I didn't have the people in my life. If I didn't have my medical issues.

Life is too damn short to go around complaining about things that are outside your control, within your control, and things to not be complained about.

If we could all just realize that this life is not a Big Effin' Deal, we would be much better off and there would be far less violence, anger, and depression in the world.

But telling someone to chill out is like telling someone to stop breathing, that shit isn't going to happen.

So, I leave you with a thought tonight, Why the hell do we all worry so much about things that are outside our control and not fight against the things in our life, whatever they may be, that we can control, instead of letting life kick the shit out of us until there is nothing in the life left worth fighting for?

Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up

I lost a friend and I miss your face

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=501683448;

I miss you Kyle. More than I think you'll understand. 6-25-83 to 7-19-11; only 28. Far to young.

I know you have plans God, but I would love my friend back. We all would. I know its not possible, but at least i know his a guardian angel now.

It's that time again...

Do you ever sit and stare at your computer? Wonder where in the hell your keys are? Trying to figure out which asshole stole your coffee?

Me neither. I am just at that point again in the night where the meds have kicked in and my brain has kicked out of quiet mode and into speedtrack WWF on acid.

I am so freaking tired. I wish there was an off button to my brain that would allow me to get the proper amount of sleep. Instead, I'm up late, watching television trying my best to get my brain to slip into a stupor so that I can sleep.

But first, I must watch an episode of MisFits to find out what in the hell is so special about it.

Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up

To A Fault

Do you ever look at a situation and wonder what you could have done better to control the outcome?
I know I have. 
I have started writing a new novel. It seems that all I do is start novels, but I never end up finishing them. I believe, under my wobbly memory, that I have written over 20 separate and distinctly unique novels.
I love to write. HENCE, this blog. What I love even more? Finishing a damn novel. 


The whole time that I have considered myself a writer I have always had something that got in the way to finishing a novel. 


Usually, I have something come up in my life that distracts the writer in me and then I end up with too much time between my writing sessions. So, I just set the manuscript aside and move on with my life.


This time, I hope I can finally finish one. We'll see how it goes.


Good Night Stay Strong and Speak Up